Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Maybe u'll tell me something i dont know...

I'm always open to these types of interpretations, and im usually pretty surprised when It's right, so I figured, what the hey... I'll try it... so tell me about my self!!

Question 1: I am in the desert, I see the ladder, and it is pointing at the sky leaning on a tree

Question 2: I am there with the horse. The horse is brown. He is standing there waiting for me to get on its back i guess...

Question 3: I like water because it's nourishing to the body, it's cleansing and because it's abundant

Question 4: My fav color is blue. I like it because it's calming, peaceful and it's brilliant.

Question 5: I like the cat because it has few cares, can rest when it wants and is affectionate

Question 6: First: can i go back to sleep, second, how do I get out of here!!

Question 7: Oscar, Hector

Question 8:Lyvia (sis)

Question 9: Jennie

Question 10:
Always by Atlantic Starr
Loving You by Minnie Ripperton
Joyride by Mariah Carey
He Loves Me by Jill Scott

Quesion 11: Paris, London, Italy, Arizona

Last one: In order Eagle, Tiger, Monkey, Sheep, Cow

Now, your turn... what does that mean?? Thanks 4 visiting my page!! Have a blessed day!!

Sunday, January 07, 2007

Randomness... enjoy.

So, my cousin wrote me an email that her new Years resolution is to grow up? how? cuz it could mean alot of ways, but in any rate, it got me thinking about what it meant to me in 10th grade to grow up. I remember when i was in high school and ppl used to say to me, "Dont rush to grow up, young lady! Cherish the days you have as a teenager!" and so now im thinking back.... cherish for what?

im looking back the last few years and comparing it to my hi school life and i was right to rush growing up in some aspects, like taking care of myself and being in charge of my future. I was rushed into growing up when i was 10 when i had to take care of my baby brother, i was rushed into growing up when i had to pay the landlord the late rent cuz my mom was too embarassed to do it herself (she told me so). I was rushed to grow up when my mom asked me to piss in a cup for her job urinalysis cuz she was gonna fail it if she did it herself, I was rushed into growing up when my dad came home crying like a baby one labor day cuz he was drunk and passed out on "his" couch when we had company (middle of the day...) I think i will stop there because all the other ones are shit that I wasnt (who decides what is proper for a kid...) supposed to be exposed to at the ages that I was...

Even though i post stuff like this, believe it or not, im not a depressed, depressing person. I love to laugh and play around. Although I do get deep and serious at times, i do need to reflect on the good things as well. I'm just happy that i reached a point where I can think about this stuff and not be sad or upset anymore... for now at least.

Monday, January 01, 2007

I'm exceptionally happy!!

(this entry is a 2fer!!! You get some good SAT words and some entertainment!! arent you the adventitious one!!)

For some reason I am in an exceptionally good mood, which is in stark contrast to this morning! Let me paint you a pretty picture: I was grumpy this morning because when i came into the office, all our phones were occupied, which meant I couldnt get on the phone and call my parents or family and friends to say happy new year :-( . I was devastated, and sank deeper into a semi-funk with each minute ticking away that everyone was on the phone... Ooooh i was Pissed!!!

But i left work to take a shower and shake that shit off. I had to literally curse myself out (all taking place in my head.... ) My inner voice is a mix of me and Monique (the beautiful comedienne/actress/inspirational speaker). So I will call her Menique. I'm more harsh on myself, and Monique is more loving and cursewords so they balance each other out. Menique was telling me: snap out of it!! What the fuck is your problem? Aint nothing that serious for you to be fucking up ur whole day!!! Besides, u know if u was on the phone, u wouldnt care if somebody wanted to get on!! Be real Bitch!!! (If you cant tell, that was me talking) Then Monique said to me, Don't sweat the small stuff, and everything is the small stuff! (actually, when i went to go see monique at a concert, she said that...)

So, I put on Stuntin' like my daddy and rocked out, i was dancin to that dance that goes with that song that was out a couple months ago. Pick your choose, there were so many that i cant remember which one... My cousin showed me how, but when I tried to simulate it, she looked at me with a face that was a mixture of disgust and embarassment. It was potent enough for me to immediately stop and feign a hurt toe. Well, I lied to myself enough to trick my brain that I was in fact in a good mood, but I couldn't lie to myself enough to think that I was doing the dance right... that's okay, cuz 8 hours later, I am still in an exceptionally great mood... all the caffeine that I drank today may have some part in it also... who cares!