Monday, September 27, 2010


ADD is a symptom of brilliance.

Saturday, September 18, 2010

maybe there is something wrong with me. maybe i am weird. maybe im not like everyone else, but who is? maybe what makes me differnt is what makes me thee same.

i dont want to be there but i dont have the answers so what do i di besides follow others guidance? i dont have the answers right now. well i was told Jesus but thats not enough guidance. love. All you need is love. All you need is love. All you need is LLOOOOVVVE. love is just a game.

Friday, September 17, 2010

im in a daze and i dont know what to do. i feel like there is something wrong and i am walking through a fog. mentally i cant comprehend life without her and its so deep within my being that i am thinking i am getting through it only to be shown that the road of recovery was actually a dead end. a dead end with bushes with thorns, concertina wire triple strand, a brick wall behind that and concrete barriers too.

the dream

one day i wished there would be a time where me and my mother could be loving and hug each other without feeling weird about it. i wish she would have let me go take her to get her hair done and get her some new shoes. i wish she would have found time for me to take her to a restaurant and chill and chat about stuff. i wanted her barriers down without her trying to force me out of her life. why wont you let me love you? i wish she would have just let me in.